ookok. i gonna tok abt 2day. yesterday. phew. it wil b a long 1. starting was great... den went 4 hair cut. i wil skip my stead de part. den actually. i dun lik my hair style now. it was ruin.... it sux. bt infront of my hair dresser. i act as i lik it alot. hais. now i tink i everiday wil style my hair, i cant bare 2 look at mirror... omg. i hate myself now. shouldnt hav gone 4 the hair cut. hais....

wth is wrong sia. arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my cousin keep giving empty promises 2 my uncle. wen she giv empty promises. my uncle bcame demoralise. wth. is going out wif friends or watever so important? i am the 1 who suffer u noe? i 2day is so stress out. my uncle suddenl say wan go the red hill de church. tis sat. wif tat old man we saw the previous day at east coast. tats wat he say. n wen he tel my dad tat. my dad cal me ask me where am i he scolded me. cause i go cut hair. is he tel me yesterday go cut de. den now lik tat. arh!!!!!!!! wtf sia. my uncle demoralise or wat. my dad stress out. den he come scold me. i so innocent lei. i duno wat i do wrong sia. i june holiday was burn. march n september de also. now dec de also. i dun blame my uncle 4 coming. bt y mus my cousin keep giving empty promises. i s ke lian sia..... hais.... everithing i kana. arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 day i sure jump down from a tal building de.


stress stress stress. Stay happy.. =]

2day mood.... bad. my stead is 1 cause of it. actualli... cant realli blame my stead. hais. she is a gd girl bah. mayb cause i am a bad stead partner. i wonder if she stil wan me? since she now ignoring me.... nvm la. dun wan den break. den i stay single. hais. den now my uncle lik tat. giv me 1 face. my dad stress out, den i jia lad. den my ma ma stil late come bak. ppl say hav faith in god. den tings wil get better. does it reali work? hais... mayb hav faith in the devil is better. idk. my holiday. june holiday, march , dec n sep. holidays r al fucked up. tis year i dun hav any holidays at al. hais. fucked up year. Stay happy.. =]

i 1 person
alone
tinking of some1
in the cold dark nite
missing her voice
her voice echo in my mind
affecting me.... day by day
lik a scene.... a beautiful scene
rosy scene.
day by day,
nite by nite,
tinking of the girl i love...
a beautiful girl, jus lik a rose.
but so deadly
like a rose.... wif blood dripping ....
my blood .... .
u killed me .
n i am in ur arms .
begging 4 ur love.
pls let me cal u .....


4 some1 special.... Stay happy.. =]

i am attached..... haha. idk sia....at first is lik i dun lik u.
i dun lik u. den duno y. i lik u. den ask u 4 stead. wth..!
i kana poison le >.< die arh die. wat 2 do? ai yo... jia lad neh.
joanne arh joanne. u arh... i gonna kill u 1 day :P haha...
hais..... wat 2 do sia...hais.... i love joanne? hais..... i cant believe i date a sec 1.>.< haha.
bt she is cute. love her 4 who she is.^^ la.


2day wen skating at east coast. si bei shiong sia. wth. hais. it was fun. hehe... gt 1 incident super funny. kk. joanne dar. i say le u cant angry arh. k. erm... i was skating. den suddenly, a chio bu. she was using the duno wat ting la. turn waste den move de, lik skate board la. bt nt skate board. den she suddenly turn. den cut into my path. den i bo bian. hurry t brake. den turn. suay suay. turn to the next lane. the another chio bu de tat thing. is on the floor. 'parking' den i jump over it wif my skates. so shiok sia. perform infront chio bu(s) hahaha.... kk . end of post. i noe i am an ass. bt my dar more chio neh. hahaha. i ltr wil most likely post another 1. hais. candy idk wat u wan sia.... wat u wan from me....


2day was : fun. Stay happy.. =]

so fucking sian. kpkb knnb. who he tink he is sia. wtf, al my hard work al go down the fucking drain le lor. nb cb. mothafucker. wtf sia. so... i ren n ren n ren le lor. he so fuck sia. wa liao.... i do my com downloading things. finishing le. den now, he switch off the power. i didnt save anything sia, fuck la. tink father so wat sia. i ren n ren le lor. everi fucking day keep scolding me. knnb sia him. father den keep scolding me arh keep scolding me vulgar arh? nb la him. he tink he who sia. ni bei on disco music he say he headach den need on those fuck up classical song. he tink i lik arh. knnb ccb. wtf sia. asshole sia him. he nt my dad i shall cal gang come wack him le lor. wtf sia. i ren n ren. he re n re. i hate tis family. fathe mother i love u? i tink family should spel as mily. better. wat father n mother i love u. fuck tis shit 4 gd la. nbcb... ni bei now ren n ren arh. 1 day ta bo lei. ni bei blow up no giv face arh u fucker. Stay happy.. =]

so long no post le. n now stil no time post. sry bloggy. owner come bak from turf club den pei u k? hahaha... y do i stil love candy so much? i thought she wan a silent break. wen she say her phone was confiscated. bt i was wrong. she sms me yesterday. n oh my heaven(leARn from sin yi mei) i heard her voice... miss her. suddenly fall so deeply in love wif her again. hais..... is tis love? i love her!!!!!! love u baby candy Stay happy.. =]

2day christmas.... bt i am fucking down. i found out something. candy, i gt a feel she is playing me. nvm....... i 4get her. n as 4 krystal. another hot looking babe. hais.... she is the cause of my sadness 2day. i dun feel lik waking my feelings out 2day, i dun wan 2 mark tis christmas.... so ya. i wil try stay happy bah....


the skies r dark... i am all alone.
water from the tap drip,
the sound of the droplet echo in the dark room i am in.
i am al alone.
tis christmas, i am al alone.....
alone in the dark dark world.
No 1 2 love.
No 1 loved...
Alone in the dark room...
admiring others,
while staying at a corner crying.... Stay happy.. =]

life's great now tat i am single. so should i stay tis way?
i duno. but i noe 1 thing. i am enjoying life now. oh ya. candy suddenly say her phone gt confiscated? kinda weird. bt stil, since her hp gt con. den i cant sms her til she sms me rite? so i am free! free from my ex shu fei.... free from candy... i am a free boi. fuck hell yea. woots..... super high.... love tis song.... from euro techno go. track 2. should b miracle or somewhere lik tat..... super high. Stay happy.. =]

2day, was painful. did some work out yesterday n the previous day... tough bt fun... love my uncle alot. candy candy candy..... wat do u wan from me.... love u so so much bt now lik tat. al i wan is a girl who wil pei me sms me, msn me. reply my sms. sms me. dun ignore me n hang out wif me. hais... i am trying my best. i understand ur stress of o lvl. i hav mine 2 u noe? yet i am here smsing u. i also need do housework. plus i need tc of my uncle n i am going 2 work next year... hais... nvm. mayb now is nt the time 4 u n me. mayb in future, c if we r stil meant 2 b 2gether. sms u something 2 me is important but u didnt even reply. hais... mayb u r nt mine 2 hold on. lik i say. i am dark u r light. we both cant b 2gether..... mayb i should go 4 another girl i hav in mind...... hais.... honestly. i am losing my feelings 2 u. feeling do fate candy. hais.... Stay happy.. =]

bak bak.... hais.... i duno wat candy wan from me sia. dun care her le. i 1 nite no slp cause of her. now stone stone de. gonna continue my art now. wil upload soon. so no mood sia. Stay happy.. =]

okok bak bak. jus had bbq. haha, hm... y am i rite? few days bak, i dreamt tat candy is leaving me. but i lied 2 her say is i kiss her. n now, she send me tis sms, oh ya by the way she is bak. jus, at nine pm plus. tis is wat she say' i tink we str as friend better. im nt used to this kind of good treatment.' do u find it as a excuse or reason?haha. it is kinda bullshiting. wel, pls. i am a ex playboy. so yea. i noe tat excuse. haha. suddenly, i duno y. i am lik expecting tis..... should i b sad? ai yo. girls r so so so troublesome. treat them gd. they say they nt used. treat them bad. they lik go away or wan break up.... honestly, i nvr treat candy veri veri gd. as in tat gd. jus a couple of sms.... tats al. hmm... curious...... hais..... dun care...^^ i am a happy boi^^ y do i feel so happy? seriously, y? i thought i wil b sad. i thought she wil hurt me.... i wil teared or some sort. but y am i smiling while i type? tat smile never ever went away. stil b friends wif her? idk.... i am heart broken yes, but y am i happy?



feeling weird? Stay happy.. =]

later wil upload some pics i hav done. 2day chiong my art hw. more lik enjoy my art hw. haha. wil post more later, stil enjoying. love u candy Stay happy.. =]

bak, didnt post 4 the pass few days cause no mood.... hais... i tis few days no slp sia.... tinking of my girl.... oh ya, i found a thing i been looking 4 al tis while^^ i found stones n crystal!!! yea... gonna spend my money on those... on girls not so sure. ai ya, who cares le lor... 43 ex. stil no find 1 bloody serious relationship. rather spend the money on myself^^ . Stay happy.. =]

didnt get my slp... dam.......... no mood post. am i single or attached? now, i myself duno. y do i love candy so much? am i such a fool? yes, i am. i am a fool. but the next question idk how 2 ans is. y am i tat fool? hais.... candy.... pls b serious wif me. 4 u i leave darkness. 4 u i am vulnerable. pls dun hurt me. cause i wil fal bak in hard...... Stay happy.. =]

yea!!! home sweet home, 2day gt headach, haha first time go great grandma house which i realli enjoy. y? cause no ppl. empty de... no 1. so windy so cooling not stuffy or overcrowded^^ anyway, it was fun. i went 2 great grand house den duno go where eat n den after tat go my grandma house. boring. k lar. it was a relaxing day. bt just boring. how i wish candy is here wif me... tok 2 her cousin, rachel. kinda admire her. cause her stead is there, there is a constant reply kinda thing. n now, i duno if candy wil play me out... ai ya. duno la, dun care. jus b happy now la.... stay happy bryan!!! Stay happy.. =]

2day, pretty shitty. went 2 my aunt house. at first thought is air brush... den in the end painting. feel so down n demoralise. on tat point feel lik going home n nt doing it. but i stil stay on. y? it is nt cause i scard or wat. cause my aunt dote me alot. dun wan giv her a hard position la. n my cousin, , she is so... hais. she is so picky, yet she is so lazy. it is lik, the naruto. the pic skin colour was lik near white, so fake. so ugly, lik ghost. i mix a skin tone colour. mix alot cause pic quite big. den she last min lik dun wan it. den i bo bian lor. remix. pour the paint to another palet. den my uncle came in, c le lik nt happy. den say me. i endure. den my cousin veri picky. i bo bian, redo tat stupid colour lik ghost. den she satisfied. i endure. den i tel her 2 paint 1 character first. cause the white ghost skin tone, not enough 4 al. simple english. she so smart. den wat her reaction? she tink i dun wan let her paint all. den act blur. fuck lar! den i ver du lan. i say u wan u paint al. most repaint. den her father came in. den i need act a gd front. y? her father dote on her so much. wan wat by wat. lik spolit her lik tat. nvm, her father come in, she win le. i endure. den she so picky, thought she wil paint veri wel. in the end? she any how paint. i c le si bei buai song. tel her off. say u paint, paint properly. otherwise veri ugly, nicely. she stil lik ya ya papaya. honestly, i feel lik scolding her lor. but bo bian her father in she biggest. so i just tel her again not so nice le. more direct. lik u wan ur room ugly u leave it lik tat. den she lik giv me attitude. anyhow mix colour n dun wan paint. paint news paper. den go eat. nb, she no do shit, she go rest den me? i need chiong chiong chiong. nvm, den thought she stil wan do. den later i go ask her do u stil wan paint? she say dun wan. i on tat point so pissed off. i was lik wtf. do i owe u? nvm. her father noe she no paint, he lik it is ok de wor. lik i paint is lik i owe dem de lei. nvm... den u noe wat she say? 2 things tat make me super pissed. first 'bryan kor kor, i wan repaint the winx club de pic, n paint again.' she was lik expecting me 2 do it. nvm, second is wen i tel her do nice nice she say 'ai ya, nvm de. after a few months 2 or 3 months, i wil paint away n do another 1' at tat point i was lik wat the FUCK i do, i rush from fucking cck 2 fucking bishan 4 fuck arh? fucking hell do until lik so jia lad try do nice nice cause my ah yi wan me do plus if i noe do, my uncle wil nag, who die? my ah yi die. n now she say al tis fuck up things.... wtf. nvm, i paint alone, den while painting i was lik veri unwilling lar.... den tink n tink. den more do more pissed off. den at a point i realli feel lik anyhow paint. but i never. 4 ah yi i never. nvm, i just endure. den u wan hear a joke? my uncle he dun wan air brush tat room. den wen i wan blend finish wif tat fuck up brush, he ask me ' bryan, do u wan 2 detail it wif air brush?' i answered him nicely, 'nah, cause i finishing le n if wan air brush need put the plastic n bring things out....' den he say 'oh ok den nvm la.' he sound a bit unhappy also. nvm i endure. the 'joke' y i put 'joke' cause if i gonna express the 'joke' my whole blog wil b stain by vulagrities. so i jus keep it in a nicer tone.




at first, he ask me air brush don's room. i say ok, cause tat time he help me find this air brush program, tak him as i owe him a favor... he also say jus air brush don's 1 of the wall onli. den i say ok. afteral i never try b4. n it is air brush. so yea. i did it, chio al the way, veri nice arh....den my uncle start the food thing. he told my dad n my family tat he wanted 2 buy 10 pao 4 me cause i can eat it n stuff. yea so? say in a nasty tone. u by 4 me, i finish it is correct arh. n bside, now i am decorating ur son room 4 u lei.ur 10 pao is not even enough 2 pay 4 my tinner, paint n maintance lor. plus my time lei? u tink ur 10 paoveri big? infact if u do by 4 me, must u say it out? if u wan say i lik 2 eat u can put it in nicer tone mah. lik i didnt manange 2 get the pao 4 bryan. wanted let him try cause it is veri tasty. infact, u never even by 10 pao, i never even eat, u can say i can eat 10? n how u noe i lik or not.? u tink u god? n ur 10+++ spring roll i onli ate 3 or 4 k? big deal? i can return u ur money if u wan. u noe how hurt was i? i feel lik being used. den ur daughter say wan paint, u cal me paint 4 her. u onli care 4 ur children. u so bloody selfish u noe? I ENDURE. i bo bian. den now, paint ur daughter room. ur daughter say tis things 2 me, correct? do things half way can arh? i do 4 u, or any1 do half way things 4 u, cannot, u do half way things can arh? den my air brush station wen wan giv me bak?n i wil NEVER GO HELP U AIR BRUSH, PAINT OR DO ANYTHING again. u say 1 means 1. i can say anything. i owe u de arh? u gt pay me arh? u didnt even say thank u. ur daughter didnt even say thank u. she didnt even treasure it. at least ur son did k? ur daughter tak it as i owe u de, owe her de. i rather stay at home n slack n rot. den go there paint. the reason y i go? nt cause i scared u or respect u or lik help. i, myself is dun wan. is cause of ah yi. giv face, n cause she dote me so much. n u noe wat, wen ah yi tel me paint the wal, i noe deep down inside, she is veri veri unhappy. n the reason y i eat le lunch den go ur house? it is cause i dun wan eat anything u bought or wat, dun wan u brag abt it again. n y i never stay? i dun wan u by things 4 me eat. yes ur food r delicious, mouth watering. so? i eat , u brag, i dun eat i hungry. i rather not stay there. thank god ah ma by prawn noodles 4 me. otherwise, i wil go out 2 eat le. even if ah yi no giv me 10 dollars 4 dinner. i also wil nt tak ur money wen u offer. i dun dare tak. must a cousin n uncle relationship b until lik tat? we might as wel b enemy. dun need mak thing so complex. i realli duno wat u thinkin. al i see in ur eye. 2 words. proud & selfish.




jus added a girl, rachel goh. my stead de cousin wor. hais tok 2 her. noe more abt her. tel her how i feel. n guess wat, i am confuse..... dun wan say le. jus happy 2 hav my ah yi agnes, my mum, my uncle(anorld), my cousin(sandy jie), my bff n also my sister(lydia), n lastly rachel goh my new mei. n dear, i realli duno if u love me whole heartedly. wen u sms me, i love u. r those words feel lik ice or candle flame? is it say 4 the sake of saying, 2 play me out or u realli mean it. i duno. but either way, i am prepared. prove me wrong. prove 2 me tat u reali love me. u r the onli thing i hav left. if u lost. i onli can depend on my air brush wife le....T^T



2 word 2 end off 2day... ===========>wasting time Stay happy.. =]

gonna post later abt my day, pretty shity. pssed off. morale low, everithing low. arh!!!!!!!!! hate my cousin! post later, now paintng. love u lots candy Stay happy.. =]

so bored..... hmm.... i was jus tinking, am i being used by my uncle? idk, but he gav me a feeling. it is lik, at times he no need me, he wil critic me n stuff. n wen he reali need me, he wil lik ask me 4 help n after tat he wil return 2 his critic. i duno y, wenever i am out wif him, i fear the most is dinner, lunch & breakfast. i duno y, but i never ever enjoy the food(even when the food is seriousli delicious) it is lik he wil ask me if i am stil hungry, n if i say yes, he wil order. but den he wil brag abt me eating alot n stuff 2 my dad. n it is realli veri hurting kinda way. i mean i am growing n he commented me lik tat. am i suppose not 2 eat? idk. n if i say no, i wil hav problem slping. yes, i can always hav instant noodles. but wen i eat it, he wil stil ask me, jus now y didnt u eat more n stuff. n it is lik i duno. sometimes i realli wish 2 pay the food myself. but how am i suppose 2 say? how am i suppose 2 put it in words? i realli try my best sometimes going out wif him is lik i am so restricted. honestly, he is the one n only uncle i dislik going out wif, n i wil realli avoid. i always kept my distant. hais... am i jus a boi who onli noe how 2 eat n do no shit 2 him? hais.....wat am i suppose 2 do? i realli duno. now i may need air brush my the other cousin room. i duno, 1 part of me is lik i dun wan do it. cause i dun enjoy the eating part. the other part of me, i wan cause i lik help ppl. especially my cousin they r my family. i realli duno y... hais, i feel lik i am nt accepted by him. how i wish he noe how i feel. so wat if he has gd study? do ppl judge each other by their inteligence? if they do, i find tis world pretty fuck up. we r al unique in our own special ways. no 1 is perfect. do al high qualified ppl tink they r the best? i dun think so cause my aunt dun think tat way... i duno, i jus find going out wif him stressful, uneasy...wat am i suppose 2 do? hais....



the emptyness in me never fade... it is a dark empty room, wif 1 person. Me.


after the recent incident, the quarrel, i realli cant even trust my veri own family. i duno realli... hais.now it is lik.... hais.... confusion. wat am i suppose 2 do? nvm let ts matter past. dun tink off it. slowly build trust again. accentuate the posistive BRYAN! k bah!!!

mis my dear so so much. it is pretty shity. haha stead wif her on the day she went 2 malaysia. i think she might tak tis chance 2 test my love n faithfulness 2wards her bah. haha. if she do, i tink i wil nt disappoint her. i realli duno y i wil accept her wen she wan me 2 stead wif her.i mean i never meet her. plus i onli tok 2 her in msn 4 lik a nite. n sms not more den 30. n i stead wif her. pretty funny wen think bak.i mean wat if she aint the girl in her pic? bhind the pic lays a plum girl? i tink my life is fucked. haha i duno.wel, a risk i would tak. love her so much. kinda think of it her name, Candy, sounds more n more sweet each passing day. duno y. miss her more n more.... i duno, but i dare nt lay much hope in her, after all she is a playgirl.. she confess 2 me. but she say she wil b serious wif me, or try 2 b serious. it is ok. i am prepared 4 the break up, on the day i accept her. hope everithing went on wel. love u lots Candy. my sweet sweet girl. muacks<3 Stay happy.. =]

cousin came, n left in a blink of an eye. life is so so boring n dull aft tat. uncle enjoy himself, haha me 2. speaking of which, kinda mis my cousin. hope they would get better in relationship. my the other uncle came, snatch them away. hais. anyway had a fun time, the pepsi i bought didnt noe it was 'well shaken' uncle open it, guess wat? pepsi was spraying everiwhere. it gave everi1 a gd laugh. until now, while typing, thinking of tat scene , i am stil laughing away. wel we al start off wif a gd laugh. had a fun time 2.it was great. wil jio my cousin out more oftern.... hais.... mayb tis christmas, would ask cousins to come n gather bah^^. anyway, it was a great hour spend. it was worth it. now my uncle feel so 'up'. i tink he had find a new drug. which is called drug of happiness, which is wat had jus happen. i think he would wan it again. n i wil giv it 2 him. i wil try my best.^^

miss u candy baby.... life's so dull wifout u. Stay happy.. =]

2day cousin come over 2 c my uncle. hope things wil turn out fine... it is a day i dun wan anythings 2 fucked up. wil post more ltr. love u candy, mis u so much.<3 Stay happy.. =]

no mood post Stay happy.. =]

hais
so sian mis my dear.......so many more days til she come bak.... hais life is so dull.... i am my dad's punching bag. no 1 understand me.... hais... sadness. uncared n loneli boi. Stay happy.. =]

miss my stead... mis u baby candy Stay happy.. =]

hais.... 2day went my aunt place. mayb gonna help my uncle air brush the wall of his house. it is naruto. wel i nt veri sure but i personally feel tat the pic do nt need air brush 2 due wif. in fact, painting it wif a brush would b perfect. n the effect would b way better. no idea y.... Stay happy.. =]

ho ho ho. first post. sian. confuse. hais. wat 2 do? hais. life? fucked up. stress... arh.... my dad's punching bag. nt happy, punch(scold + nag) wth. hais.... going 2 my break down if tis keep up. wats life? hais....... Stay happy.. =]