oh la.... so so so boring. npcc sux. love my juniors alot. bt the system sux.....
me, jus me....

silly me, ran around n around.... n den come bak 2 square 1..... where i was being build.... hais... anyway, it is boring.... haha. w8ing, playing? nah mayb nt playing bt jus w8ing.... tired of playing... sian sia.... candy... oh ya. i finally manage 2 communicate wif her.... it was hard... haha... bt now everithing is fine.... she is proud of me. she is the reason y i am changed. 2 bcome better. wel, i guess i mus continue 2 b better n mak her proud... haha... a few more mnths til 'O" lvl end.... few more months... i wil stive through tis months.... hahahaha.


i may be heartbroken, but love is the glue and perserveance is the stick that makes my heart heal and move on bitch ;D Stay happy.. =]

yesterday, work... work lik dog. help my friend jin yew... he clear the plates, i do sos.... gt wrong? no wat. den say wat i nvr do anything go there is tok tok tok. den the manager stil say she regret giving me a chance. wat listen 2 tonny sir n giv me chance. i was lik wtf sia. i try so hard. in the end? al i get is tis shit? hello? ur pay is low hor. n now i need work lik dog. n til so late somemore. the food u al provide also lik.... hais... wth sia... going quit the job soon. so many stuff al nt happy liao.... hais... 1 day we al quit... best! stupid job. HATE IT! Stay happy.. =]

2day veri jia lad... lazy tok abt it... ltr den post bah... Stay happy.. =]

Stay happy.. =]

Stay happy.. =]

Stay happy.. =]

SIS N BRO 4EVER!!!!!! Stay happy.. =]

my uncle bought me 2 eat gigantic oyster... 1 oyster 9 dollars..... big sia....
my adorable sis
sis, stupid sia, slap urself 4 wat? Stay happy.. =]

me hugging my dad buy 4 my mum de valentimes bear



Stay happy.. =]

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling


This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant, It Makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, Don't you let it pass you by


This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by



Avril Lavigne- Innocence Stay happy.. =]

wil post ltr... try bah.... so many tings 2 say... so little time left.... T.T Stay happy.. =]

cant b bothered. wat is love sia.... fucking hell. hais... sian arh... fuck fuck fuck.... dam... i gonna 4get yy. plus now rachel, the girl i lik, some how lik cold cold 2 me de.... sian arh.... hais, wtf sia..... arh!!!!!! i hate tis thing cal love. there is no love in my dictionary. no more.... fucking feeling.


hate npcc. NPCC SUX. stupid.... i hate tis cca... ppl so bosy. cant slack arh? ppl headach u say ppl buai song. nb.... hate hate hate... ar.... wats wrong wif me... dam , y my mood so swing.... y y y? Stay happy.. =]

tired tired tired tired tired... Stay happy.. =]

2day did 260 push up.... shiok..... haha.... k la. now need train my abs.. die arh. my abs lik weird weird de..... duno la... haha.... dun care le.... i am single, i am happy tats al tat matters. more happy den attached. dam..... wat a waste of my 11 days....

jus gt bak from work place. it was fun.... 2day was bz.... haha.... i love my college.... oh... they r so cute... thx 4 making my day unknowingly.^^ haha.... cheer 2 u all.... thx u veri veri much.... Stay happy.. =]

bak 2 square 1. single.... feel so relax.... so much freedom. no more thinking. ACCENTUATE THE POSISTIVE. so i guess break up also gd la. she happy cause she tink i tied her down. bt the fact? she is ignoring me. if i am her, i tink i wil giv a better excuse. hais. 4get it. girls r al the same.(except 4 some) al so bitchy de. starting lik so sweet.... den ltr, few days ltr lik bitch le... giv up on r/s le la...i wan post a sms by my uncle.



1st yes there is many outside. as i ever said n nt b affected by r/s as u r stil young. i tink mab tats y u nvr realli cherish every1 u b wif or understand them more. no use for having many gf everitime for jus weeks. tat's actualli ruin ur status in future. example as flirts, player etc. tat time u wil truly understand wen u can nvr win the gal heart who u love the most. lik me boy. u had already grown up. mus know wat is rite or wrong ok. wat is gd or bad 4 un nvr hav a mind thinking having many gf is a proud thing okie. wat's comes around goes around ok boy. remember :) study hard ok

after reciving tis sms.... i feel touch cause my uncle seldom or rarely sms me. n it is a long 1. i at first thought of accepting 5 girls n play all. bt den now, i dun wan le. i dun even noe if i wan get a girl. since my uncle lik tat say i tink i wil stay single.... 4 a time den c how bah. kinda tink of it. single is nt bad. haha.... 4giv n 4get.... i am ok... perfectly fine.... i love the author who wrote tis book. whale done. cause it changes me. it change me 3 a extend tat i am better wif my friends. i bcome more posistive 2wards everithing. n even aft break. i can recover lik almost instantly wifout any sadness. lik the break was a month thing. i am perfectly normal.... weird... i love tat book alot.... Stay happy.. =]

2day went out wif uncle...!!! yea!!!! he brought me 2 bugis n den 2 china square... went 2 bugis, i bought 1 clothes. nice... my uncle bought 2 clothes wif 1 pants.... my uncle so so shuai!!! hahaha.... love my uncle lots. he came 2 pick me up after skol wif his sports car.. den went 2 bugis... shop shop. i was also looking 4 stuff 4 my little baby... haha... i am tinking of bying a set of clothes 4 my little girl 2 wear.... it is so so cute... bt duno wil she wear mah... den ltr go n eat. uncle brought me go japanese stall eat. i ate 3 oysters... 3 big oysters.... omg.... ltr wil post the pic of the oysters. the serivce there is also realli gd. i ate some curry beef rice kinda thing... n some boiled octopus thingy... nice... i also had some soft shell crab handroll. my uncle cal it spider. my uncle ate some beef wif noodles wrapped up wif fried egg.... the food overall cost 92.00 omg!!! the oyster cost 9dollars. 1 oyster cost 9 dollars.... bt it was fun... love going out wif my uncle. den ltr walk walk, go down escalator.... gt 2 girls were looking at me n my shuai uncle. den wen reach his car le, mazda MRS. den i told him abt the girls looking at us. he ask me y no tel him earlier den can ask 4 no.
haha. learn some techniques in flirting from my uncle le... haha... den ltr go china square c c toys.. i bought 2 small figurine 4 my dad n uncle. 1 each. the fanstaic 4 de 'the thing' n incredbile hulk 4 my dad. pic wil b uploaded ltr. den aft tat uncle send me home. it was fun.....


dar dar no sms me much lei..... hais... she 4get me le.... hais... disappointed. y do i feel loneli yet loved? it is lik sometimes i feel lik i am steading bt nt steading. bt n tat same point of time. i feel lik my darling love me alot.... idk her la. always band n stuff. hais. dun even spend time 4 me le.... i feel tat she is drifting away from me. sian, now she lik tat. plus i stil need study n work... wif my 'o' lvl chinese oral coming up n also my chinese o lvls. i duno i can cope mah... if cant den go depression le lor.... bo bian sia.... hais... sad yet happy... Stay happy.. =]

my darling.... i love her so so much.... 2day was veri veri down... cause my baby, i thought she was ignoring me lar... i feel so so cold... bt den 1 sms she send me giv me tat warmth feeling... wen i ask her darling can u warmth me?she repiled tis...

"where got treat you cold? baby, dun think too much ok? i love you <3 today first day of work, dun stress yourself la.''

tat was the sms dat change my feeling... i feel the warmth again...^^ haha muacks baby. hais... i miss her voice, her smile, her laughter n definietly her looks.... n kinda miss her kiss :X haha...2day was sad so ate 2 big plates of rice.... so excited... 6pm gonna start work le.... hais.... scared sia,..... scared sia.... anyway, darling i love u so so much. yea... mayb i tink 2 much.... haha.... love u lots.... n sry abt the past feel post, cause yesterday i was realli veri veri down... n seriously tat is how i feel wen u ignore my sms, time after time.... cause u r bz... love u baby Stay happy.. =]

'promise me u wil sms me, promise me u wil call me, promise me u wil msn me, promise me u wil meet me.... promise me....'

hais.... 4gotten boi........ wanted 2 tel u tat i am gonna start work 2morrow. i am gonna work at 6pm... at yew tee.... thought could share my feelings... i am scared of 2morrow.... bt where were u? 2day i recieved 9 sms from u... 2morrow is 8 is it? u didnt even cal me or wat.... hais....heart broken....

feel lik crying out... bt tink bak,cry 4 wat? ignore me... hais... first day u were so excited... sms me lik everi single min.... den now? hais.... u told me ur boi from veri close 2 u den slowly bcome cold... y do i feel tat u r now lik tat boi, n i am u.... y? hais........ i love tis relationship... i treasure it so so much. n wen u do reply, u say ur phone no batt. is it my fault? i ask u where u r,u dun wan say. no reply. where the hell r u? now u gotta b at home rite? u how tired also can sms me rite? at least rite? ask me how am i. tats the least i expect le. i dun ask 4 much... ur friend admire u. cause i love u so much. bt r u treasuring me? or r u jus taking it 4 granted? i dun feel gd typing tis out. bt u r 2 much le. from a event i wana tel u, tat i gonna start work. yea i am scared bt also excited cause i can by u the bear wif my own earn money. bt where were u? cal u? no ans. sms u no reply. u go out? den leave ur phone charging is it? at least sms tel me rite? bside u gt 2 phone rite?do u stil love me i wondered. hais. pointless typing so much. afteral, do u even care enough 2 tink of how i feel? or r u jus angry wen u c tis? i duno. i cant b bothered le. i am tired, tired of w8ing 4 u 2 on9. tired or w8ing 4 ur replys, tired of w8ing 4 ur cal. u say ur ex from every morning can meet until after skol say c first. ya mayb u realli cant check. bt u r nt even putting in effort in meeting me. den y should i lay so much hope in meeting u n den al u say is i ltr gt the duno wat ceromany. sry didnt even say. nvr even say anything 2 confort me. 4get it, i no mood le... the scar u left 2day, wil nvr disappear. jus lik the cane scar i hav on my arm.


i love u darling. always tinking of u.... pls change... T.T Stay happy.. =]

being attached... is bless... bt den, wen u r alone, wen ur baby is bz.... we r so close, cause we r jus an sms away... bt yet so far... she is always bz.... an sms isnt 2 much 2 ask 4.... hais..... idk her la... i guess i am 2 much bah... hais.... wen 2gether feel so happy... wen alone, i feel so cold... i hate feeling cold!!!!! nvm.... i duno how 2 xpress my feelings here.... hais... nvm den.... T.T


my 2 post is so contrasting.... i guess it shows mostly of how i feel bah... uncared bt cared. unloved, bt loved... weird feeling.... Stay happy.. =]

2day so shak.... oh dear... my baby so so bz.. sms me 8 sms onli. so far.... idk y lei... even wen she no sms me lik 24/7.... i do nt feel tat she dun care 4 me.... kinda think of it... i feel tat she love me alot... idk... feelings again... ai yo... i nvr ever blive in feelings... y now i suddenly bcome a strong bliver? i duno la.. so so weird... 2day at first wan meet dar dar.... bt den she gt some things on. hais... den didnt meet. she is cold 2wards me le.... bt duno y, i stil noe she care 4 me... ai yo... i am a love idolit..... hahaha.... wat 2 do? lucky my baby stil wan me.... hahahaha.... hope she wil sms me more.... n hope 2morrow she can meet me bah... sometimes, i ask myself, am i annoying? cause i keep smsing my dar dar.... bt she nvr reply. wondering if she is ignoring me.... hais.... so so so sian.... k la... i ltr gonna do more work out.... jus did some..... hais.... baby, i miss u.... Stay happy.. =]

Stay happy.. =]

yesterday was fun....go hougang mall meet my dar dar. den she was so long n late -.- lucky no overstay again haha. stupid mrt. think bak stil kinda pissed.pay bloody 2dollars jus lik tat. freaking mrt! nvm.... den went 2 meet her at hougang de interchange.... den at first wana go c c hougang mall.. den go in. c dao so many ppl.... so crowded.... n so many lvls need walk. den i c le jiu tired le. turn bak... tak train go amk.... den reach le amk... dar dar pei me. she c me eat hokkien mee n rojak.... den after tat go my aunt house slack a while.... den went 2 meet my parents.... my uncle n dad cut hair... so i go makan again... tis time is sea food fried rice... i giv my dar dar al the sea food. i jus eat the fried rice... she eat le so happy i c also happy. den she peel 1 prawn 4 me eat. so touching sia... first time some1 do tat 4 me.... haha.... den aft tat go by bubble tea... den i also gt tok 2 her friend cindy... hais.... poor girl.. kana played le stil blive in love.... ke lian.... den after by le bubble tea. go bak 2 the salon. den cut my hair. my hair stylist is so interested in my baby. den keep say we wil get married n hav gd life n stuff lik we veri pei.... veri couplely...haha... my darling keep laughing.... she so ke ai.... den after tat go my aunt house. my cousin, an ya. she love my dar... they veri close lik tat. den hor... my cousin steal my baby away from me....T.T an ya, go get ur own xiao yun la... tis 1 is tink? nt sure... bt we drank a lot of hard licker... den after tat slack there.... den ltr... my uncle wan me by ice... den me n baby go 7-11 by lor... we went down.... she so happy. she is lik skipping n doing al those childish action. i mean if she dun do tat, she is nt my baby le. den after by le ice. we went 2 the void deck at my uncle house there sit awhile. hav some private moments.... she gav me a big love bite... ah... vampier bite me.... den after go bak up.... i tel my papa tat i get bitten. den my dad start joking around. say my aunt no do fogging,.... cause i gt 1 super big mosquito bit me.... hahaha..... den i hear le blur, den spill the ice... den my dad was lik... omg omg... dun spill the ice!!! haha ice = money... den i was laughing away... den ltr me n dar dar went out off my aunt house. cause her friend wana cal her. den they tok... my dar on loud speaker. her friend cindy is lik jealous cause we veri couplely. den she say my dar veri bad cause bully me. den i say,i love my dar cause she veri bad... if she nt bad, she nt my dar le. she no bully me den she is nt my dar le... haha... love her so so much. after tat play wii... boxing.... i box my dar dar. den ltr i see she try so hard 2 lik wana win me...... den i jus giv in... let her box me. let her win... c she so so happy... i also happy getting 'beaten up' haha.... den after tat she need go home le... so we went void deck there slack a while.... had some private moments... *private moments cant b shared * den after tat... i piggy bak my dar cause she say she super tired... den i also wan lar.... so i piggy her from opposite my aunt house 2 amk hub... wen walk past ppl... ppl wil look at us... stare at us... had a ver romantic time 2gether... i wouldnt say they stare... more lik admire us bah... who cares wat they tink? i mean my dar happy i ok le.... den i put her down at amk hub... i was sweating lik.... nvm... den took bus 25 2 her house there... den took another bus go her cousin there. on the way there, she shared wif me abt her ex. i wil nt tok abt her ex, cause respect her privacy, anyway, xiao yun, past is pass. dun care so so much k? i mean, i spend money on u... n lik i say. i dun expect u 2 spend money on me. the most is u pay 4 ur food or wat.... cause i am seriously low on cash also... i dun feel gd asking u 2 pay 4 ur own food. bt nvm... sry k? n i rarely, more lik super rarely go arcade play de. even if go arcade is lik i go in 5 or 10 mins come out le.... n if i play... is lik less den 10 dollars nia... average is 5++ n i wil nt let u pay 4 it de... 1 day we meet at amk den i let u play tat racing game or duno wat game u say k? or mayb we go town there play... on our 1st month k? n i hav ask my parents if i can go town wif u. they say can^^ anyway....baby, i love u a lot.... seriously.... i duno y... the part wen u bite my ear... it gav me the most 'feeling' lik veri memorable..... cause no 1 did tat. nt even my parents.... n last time i always get pulled on the ear by my dad.... n it hurts lar.... so normally i dun lik ppl 2 touch my ear...bt den... nvm... i lik it wen u touch... duno y:X

2day sian sia.... dar dar slp lik pig...so late den wake up... den i no meet her... hais... my day so so dull... so bored... nvm... i mean i wil stil meet her perhaps 2morrow? or tuesday or mayb wed? i duno.... or mayb even friday? tel her pon her cca? hahaha.... anyway... my uncle is lik going 2 fetch me after skol on thursday wif his sport car... omg... i am so looking 4ward 2 tat day... ah gu dun late k? haha.... love u lots baby cloud... muacks <3<3<3<3 Stay happy.. =]

my baby stil sick... oh dear... hope she get well soon.... hais... now gt cough n she feel lik vomiting. ai yo. poor girl. 2morrow stil gt stupid CIP. hais. waste time de lor. CIP= confirm idolitic programe...-.- how can tis stupid programe stil my baby away from me... i hate CIP!!! u giv n help the society. n wat they giv u in return? wait long den u get yea? my baby sick stil need go.... hais... ke lian her. 2morrow she coming my place le!!! i wil go meet her at hougang mall. woots. i nvr been there b4... i guess she wil giv me a quick tour bah... haha... i jus love my baby so so much. she is so... ke ai.... muacks....love her lots. <3 Stay happy.. =]

hais.... sian...... stupid!!!! do al parents wan power? idk.. i jus feel lik my dad jus wan power over me. pretty shity. nvm.... screwed up life. lucky gt xiao yun... hahaha. anyway, 2day went 4 job interview... everithing settled. starting work after my bday which is 17 jan? next, next week!!! work le! yeepee. kkk. anyway, i nth much 2 say.... I need 2 work on accentuating the posistive. must nt go bak 2 my old self.... hais.... life sux... cant parents jus giv me a break? i jus wish 2 b left alone, undisturb sometimes....


y do i wan 2 feel lonely at times wen i arent. N at times tat i am.... i wana feel love? fucked up feeling.... hais..... Stay happy.. =]

hais... 2day skol... fun.... haha. learn alot of new thing... hate 1 fat ass who tinks he so pro.... . Andre Teo Wei Feng... fucking hel tink he so pro in everiting. i endure nia. 1 day cant endure i mak sure u kiss the floor lar fucker.



hais... my dar dar sick. yesterday jus had a heart 2 heart tok. i noe her lik more sia.... so honoured. u r the first girl whom i had heart 2 heart wif u noe? i love u so much. heart 2 heart tok is hurting i noe. bt i promise u. i wil try nt 2 mak it so hurting k?? i cried again yesterday... althought i should b ashame.... bt i am kinda happy cause i finally found my miss rite... i love u so much.
darling now sick... hais... headach... mayb is cause she tink 2 much yesterday. anyway, i jus wan her happy. nth matters more den tis relationship. i love this girl. muacks. baby, i wil try 2 change k? i try my best bah. k? love u so so much....

baby u must get wel soon k? hais. i also sore throat sia... some1 pass 2 me de.... hahahaha. nvm... i am strong... love u so so much. tc xiao yun.... Stay happy.. =]

2day... my dar mak me teared... she is the first girl i cried 4.... hais... i realli feel tat sense of touched.... i was touched... tears keep failling, falling non stop... lik water fall. feel so weird... hais...i love her so much.... she touched my heart.... i love her so so much. she gav me a love bite. it is nt red lar. she is the first girl who did tat 2 me wifout me asking. she also did somethings 2 me which wil nt b mention here. i love her so so much. den wen i cry....she swept away my tears.... she is my dream girl... i am looking 4 a girl. whom would mak me cry.... n swept the tears away. u duno how much tat 2 action... means 2 me.... even wen i ran away from home. i dun cry or teared.... u mak me teared. 4 the first time. i teared al the sadness out... ur warmth melt my cold hard.ur care broke my feelings n emotions free. i love her so so much.... i duno... i jus fall deeply in love wif her 2day... her voice... her expression... she is so adorable.... i love her wen she smile... wen she 'blea' 2 me... she lick me 2day.... i love her so so much... i first time get lick by a girl. she tis girl, break so many records. jus 2day. she stole away so many things... i wan her badly. i wil nvr leave her. i guess i found true love haha... i wan her 4ever. she say she wil w8 4 me 4 2 years. cause i need go stupid NS. i believe she wil. i wan b wif her sia... hais.. i believe she love me alot 2. n is crazy over me. darling i love u so much. she also pick up some food 4 me... wen we hav dinner. lik giv me some food. i was touched again. cause tis action was done by my parents 6 years bak. i dreamt tat a girl who can mak me cry is the girl tat wil mak me laugh. i noe she is the girl.... she swept my tears off me.... my parents used 2 do tat... tat was wen my happiness was nt lost. i am free. free by my sadness n everithing. thxs 2 her my baby girl. i love her so much... baby, i promise i wil nvr hurt u. honestly, i at first thought i wil nvr b wif u. n u r nt the girl cause u r nt horny.... bt after yesterday n 2day, especially 2day. i tink i was wrong. i teared cause partly i thought u r nt the girl, i feel so bad...i am sry dar... i am sry. baby, u r my happiness.i wan u... 4ever pls dun leave me anymore. u r my life le. i wan marry u in future if possible...no more flirting. n from now on. i wil nvr force u 2 let me touch u or wat le. cause i find tat pointless... cause i love u... baby, i love u...muacks. n sry Stay happy.. =]

2day was great. my girl came my house..... we were having so so much fun.... hm... i wil sumarise 2day. den i wil post my feelings 4 2day. k? so.... i rush 2 sarangoon 2 meet my baby. she let me w8 4 1 hr... actualli was more den dat. bt it isnt nice 2 lik put long hrs.... haha.. k so met her.... she was so happy 2 c me... so sweet....i love her so much. i was starving... had stomach ach... didnt wan go toilet. cause dun wan waste tat money.( tak note of the money part*) idk y i would even w8 4 her. normally i dun w8 4 girls... n if i do. i wil b veri pissed. bt wen i c her.... i find tat al those long hours of w8ing n starving n endurance was paid off.... love her so much. den from sarangoon tak train go woodlands 2 xchange my mum's clothes. she was a great girl, help me check my mum clothes. idk hor check sia... lucky gt a baby lik her help me..... den after changing the clothes. went 4 window shopping. was shopping 4 soft toy. haha my baby love soft toys. i am her big big bear bear^^ hor dar? haha... saw 1 veri cute bear. thinking of getting tat 4 her on our 1 month anniversary.... haha... den after dat wen 2 lot 1 2 eat some jap food. 4got the name again. bt it is tasty. some spicy (nt spicy de... cheat my feelings) de seafood soup i tink? den we share our rice... n aft tat, wen 2 my house... my dad n uncle at home. we sang karaok... my baby hav a great voice.... fall 4 her even more nw... n she mak me cry. den...... (skip skip skip) den dinner. had dinner wif me. den she need rush home. i gav her $20 4 her 2 tak taxi home. love her lots.. Stay happy.. =]

2day my mama n papa aniversary.... hais... my dar stil no sms me. stil slping mah? hais.... miss her so....going woodlands hope can c her... Stay happy.. =]

attached.... again. hais.. hope tis time wil last. wats wrong wif me sia.... been 2 candy's blog. found out tat she is realli serious abt me.... miss me n i hurt her. i jus leave her cause i am weak n wana b strong. n if i am strong n single i might go bak 2 her... bt y.... y mus things turn out tis way. y is life so fucked up?




i am so happy 2 hav a baby cloud wif me.... she is so sweet. love her lots.... dam she is hot.... phew... bryan is burning now.... haha... love her lots lots.
gues wat? she added me on tagged on new year. i added her on msn, get her contact n stead wif her on the same day. new year. jus love her lots. hope can last long long wif her. she is my little sweetie... muacks. ltr wil post the poem i did 4 her... kinda lazi now. haha. love u Baby cloud Stay happy.. =]