Wednesday, 5 May 2010
i feel so useless......i am such a failure.
i fail 2 b a gd son.
i fail 2 b a person who can study well, get good results....
my chinese study so hard. in the end? paper 2 i fail by 5.5 marks. hais i duno wat 2 say le la.
i failed 2 b a gd stead.
now my stead mak me n tis girl call samantha, we same same importance 2 her.... i feel lik my stead is drifting away from me. i told her time after time tat we should nt bother abt other ppl problems. sometimes, i wish 2 spend some quality time wif her. bt jus cant. now my fucking phone gt confiscated. i cant sms her. al i can is cal her wen i reach home. bt den everitime we call. i wil feel hurt as she would hurt me 1 way or another.....most of the time she is unaware of it. hais.... i duno how 2 express myself.... i am such a failure....
samantha may b goin through hardship physically. bt baby, i am going through it mentally.
i realli do nt feel any sense of belonging 2 tis world. tis horrid place. i guess, tat candle flame i hav 2 lit the entire dark room in me hav been put out.... by u.... hais, i am sorry bt if tis goes on, i may follow the call of death.... sadness
