my ex wrote tis "I dont know should i hate him or continue loving him . He keep on breaking his promises , again and again . Go find Other girls la hor . I aint somebody for you to fool around . Five months being fooled around you is already enough dont come trying to fool me rounds and rounds again ."

5 months being fooled around?so wen we r actually 2gether, u tink i was fooling u? ok fine nvm.... i fooled u happy? oh w8. no i dun tink u r fooled. bt i think i am the fool! i love u so much, bought almost everything u wanted. u wanted a rose i by u wanted anything i always tried 2 get it 4 u. n now? u tink i fooled u? toyed u? great! tis is so heartbreaking. suddenly, all my hopes n care 2wards u shattered n burn 2 ashes. u dun even noe the amount of sacrifice i made 4 u. dam...... everitime i saw winne the pool or tat stupid turttle i tink of u. i 2day almost teared as i saw tat pool. everyime i saw something cute, i always think oh y nt i by it 4 my baby, bt ltr did i realise, i hav actualli broken up. i put tat thing bak.... hais sometimes i tink i am the fool who tried 2 love her so much, hoping 2 satisfiy her every way possible. jus wan her 2 change n b happy. bt den she did change. bt it was 4 the worst i guess. n actually i tink i am the 1 being fooled. cause u smoke bhind my bak, u did all sorts of things bhind my bak. yet i although i noe, i pretend as if i dun. who is the biggest fool now? Stay happy.. =]

sadness sadness sadness. hais...... break up wtf? i duno tat 2day would realli b the last lunch. hais...... the last lunch..... i realli hope 2 meet her again... soon. i wish i could marry her, my dream 2 tat is stil aint gone... mayb ltr part of the life, wen she matures, mayb den is the rite time 2 contact her. i wonder wil she stil love me by den? hais confused confused confused. i jus out of time. i am so stress out. wat 2 do tell me.... i onli grandson. i need consider factors. her bad reputation may affect my studies, as i worried 4 her n if my studies affected i cant do well..... hais, i just wish tat she wil stil w8 4 me.... idk y deep down, i stil love her alot. she wil stil b the cutest girl in my heart.... bt wats the point, we had broken up..... wat 2 do.? i jus hope she wil find a better boy.... bt den again, imagining her being hugged by another boy mak my hearts ached. fuck! al i can do now, is teared alone in the emptiness in me....

2day was jus fucked up..... wen had lunch wif samantha n my 'baby' n den went c doc..... den ltr tings jus happen 2 fast.... and ltr do i noe.... break up hais. after i read her blog, i decided giv her 1 more chance. she turn down tat offer...... i am sad, i am down.... i realli wish 2 b wif her again in future..... bt i guess she do nt wan me anymore. she claim tat i deserve a better girl... wel i guess i do. bt she aint tat bad... jus a little childish... hais, she's stil the girl i love.... bt mayb n hopefully since she do nt wan me anymore, time wil heal the wounds n leave fresh memories unwritten.....


sad sad sad..... Stay happy.. =]