sadness sadness sadness. hais...... break up wtf? i duno tat 2day would realli b the last lunch. hais...... the last lunch..... i realli hope 2 meet her again... soon. i wish i could marry her, my dream 2 tat is stil aint gone... mayb ltr part of the life, wen she matures, mayb den is the rite time 2 contact her. i wonder wil she stil love me by den? hais confused confused confused. i jus out of time. i am so stress out. wat 2 do tell me.... i onli grandson. i need consider factors. her bad reputation may affect my studies, as i worried 4 her n if my studies affected i cant do well..... hais, i just wish tat she wil stil w8 4 me.... idk y deep down, i stil love her alot. she wil stil b the cutest girl in my heart.... bt wats the point, we had broken up..... wat 2 do.? i jus hope she wil find a better boy.... bt den again, imagining her being hugged by another boy mak my hearts ached. fuck! al i can do now, is teared alone in the emptiness in me....

2day was jus fucked up..... wen had lunch wif samantha n my 'baby' n den went c doc..... den ltr tings jus happen 2 fast.... and ltr do i noe.... break up hais. after i read her blog, i decided giv her 1 more chance. she turn down tat offer...... i am sad, i am down.... i realli wish 2 b wif her again in future..... bt i guess she do nt wan me anymore. she claim tat i deserve a better girl... wel i guess i do. bt she aint tat bad... jus a little childish... hais, she's stil the girl i love.... bt mayb n hopefully since she do nt wan me anymore, time wil heal the wounds n leave fresh memories unwritten.....


sad sad sad..... Stay happy.. =]